self portrait smoking, originally uploaded by heyoka.

I had a cigarette this morning, and, if I don’t crack, that’s me done for now.

Be gentle, and wear flameproof clothing around me for the next couple of weeks at least, because if I’m not smoking, I may be more than a little dragonish. Please be extra nice to Snarl, as my poor beloved will get the brunt of this.

Why? It’s how I’m going to find the money for my OU courses, and when it comes down to a straight swap between the two, much as I love smoking (and yes, I really do enjoy it) studying will have to win. Three quid into a jar, every day from now until I’m done. I can’t bear the idea of being thwarted by skintness.

Wiped out by spring-somnia, and I’ve not swum for over a week now. I’m back in the water this evening though, whatever. I’m going to try to swim, or go to the gym, every day for the next week or so, as distraction while I try to get over the first horrible stretch. It might get me sleeping again, too.